Thursday, June 29, 2006
I feel like I've lost this closeness with You.
Why?
This sense of drifting away scares me.
I know there is a reason why I feel this. Is it just my imagination? Or have I done something that hurt You?
If so, I'm sorry. I'm sorry for doubting, for asking so many 'why?'s. I'm sorry for choosing to fall in small temptations. Forgive me..
Please come back. Don't leave... I need You- when I'm sad, glad, mad, or simply content. You are my rock, and my comfort. I need You so so much...
It's hard right now, having this feeling of emptiness. Even when I'm happy, I'm not truly happy. When I'm sad, I feel quite depressed. All because You're not around. I feel like crying, but I can't.
I know You'll be back.. I just want to know how long will it take? Maybe You just want me to realise all the more how much I need You. Well, I know now.. I'm pretty sure I do. Nevertheless, let not my will but Yours be done.
I love You, and I know You love me too.
Sunday, June 25, 2006
since dear Ms En aka s.pok aka Ms Toot wants me to do this...
Q1) Ever been given a ring?
nope..
Q2) Longest relationship?
haha. my relationship with God... BEFORE birth!
Q3) Last gift you gave?
does the card for the camp thing count?
Q4) How many times have you dropped your cell?
3 to 5 times... my poor phone!
Q5) Last sport played?
went cycling yesterday.. that counts right?
Q6) Things you spend alot of money on?
food. definitely food
Q7) Three things you ate last?
hmm... burger, cup noodles, and salmon n mushroom speghetti.
Q8) What you notice first about the opposite sex?
i don't really know. overall look?
Q9) One favorite song:
haha. that would be too hard to choose. let's just say love songs to Jesus are the best
Q10) Where do you live?
for fear of possible creepy stalkers, it will not be revealed. =)
Q11) High school you attended?
CHIJ Sec
Q12) Cell phone service provider?
M1
Q13) Favorite Mall store?
nil..
Q14) Longest job held?
eh.. never had a job. ask me in the future
Q15) Do you own a pair of dice?
... no
Q16) Do you prank call people?
I'm lousy at it, so no.
Q17) Last wedding attended?
I can't remember... hmmm
Q18) First friend you call if you won the lottery?
are you kidding me?? why would I play lottery? It's a sin you know!
Q19) Last time you attended church?
last sunday.
Q20) Favorite fast food restaurant?
err.. none really. i don't do favourites
Q21) Biggest lie you've heard?
that 'Da Vinci Code' book i suppose
Q22) Where do you work?
currently unemployed
Q23) Where do you go to college?
ask me again next year. IF i get into college
Q24) Can you cook?
ahaha. define 'cook'
Q25) What kinda car do you drive?
hah. ask me again in 2 years baby! JUST 2 YEARS! woot!
Q26) Best kisser?
.... Can't say. I guess my family then. All the pecks on the cheek make me feel warm inside. =)
Q27) Last time you cried?
on the Thailand mission trip, when God let me feel a teeeeensy bit of his love for the Thai children. That was overwhelming.
Q28) Most hated food?
can't think of any at the moment. I'll just put 'none'
Q29) Thing you like most about yourself?
I'm not too sure..
Q30) Thing you hate most about yourself?
My temper.. haha
Q31) Have a secret you can't tell?
heh heh.. yes.
Q32) Longest shift worked?
haha. cant say when I've never had a job
Q33) Favorite movie?
like i said before, I don't do favourites
Q34) Can you sing?
I sing ok.. i think..
Q35) Last concert attended?
Rachel's school concert
Q36) Favorite restaurant?
none in particular.
Q37) Last movie rented?
woah. i can't remember.
Q38) Favorite alcoholic drink?
DRINKING IS BAD! DON'T DRINK!
Q39) Thing you never leave home without?
God's Holy Spirit. =)
Q40) Immediate vacation spot?
Australia just popped into my mind.. so Australia it is
Q41) Reason you did this quiz?
Ms En asked me to, and because I'm nice
Q42) 4 lovely people to do this quiz?
I'll let whoever who wants to do it, do it.
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
Woah. I'm back! Actually, I was back on Saturday night.. i just didn't blog is all. The Thailand trip was fantastic! God did many many big things. Haha, too many to name! My inkling was half right afterall. I said he would do something big, turned out, he did many big somethings. Haha. I shan't tell you all of them though. However, I will state one thing that God did for me during the trip.. He helped me to be still and listen for Him. I mean, I've tried being still before, but my mind is usually filled with questions in my head- like why? and How? and when? and you're having a laugh out of this aren't you? - thing like that. This time, I am able to actually wait and listen out for his voice. So I really thank God for that.
That aside, I have a poem I want to share!
I fell asleep in class, i did,
because i was so bored.
I put my head upon my desk,
closed my eyes and snored.
I woke to find a piece of paper
stuck upon my face.
I'd slobbered on my textbooks
and my hair was a disgrace.
I had a massive headache
my eyes were glazed and red,
my binder left a three ring
indentation on my head.
I slept right through the period
and would've slept somemore,
but my students woke me
as they headed out the door.
Wahahaha! So cute! My sis showed me this poem today. I used to have it in my old phone though, so this is quite old.. hahah! Plus, before my sis showed me, I was laughing at Mr Lun because I pictured him as a teacher. Ahaha.. The teacher above could be hiimm!!!(if he ever teaches) Wahahahahhaha~! Oh well, I've stopped laughing now. Haa~~
See you around!
Sunday, June 11, 2006
I'm going to Thailand tomorrow! BUT I'M SICK! Gaahh... I hate falling sick; not even if I get to miss school. The feeling I get is just not worth it. Maybe it's because when I fall sick, it's usually pretty bad- with fever and vomiting and all that. Note, the word is usually. I guess it was a lucky thing that Mum called us to go home when she did, considering the fact that the fever came when I was on the bus freezing half to death.I kind of knew I was sick, but to me, if I don't need to lie on the bed, I'm alright. Then again, there was this one time I went to school because I wasn't bedridden, and a fews days later, the whole row fell sick. Hmmm...
Anyway, I've been having mixed feelings about the Thailand trip. I'm excited about the mission trip due to the fact that it will be my first time going overseas for missions. Also, I have this inkling that God is going to do something big (for/ to me) when I go there. It's the same inkling I got before leaving for Australia last year, and y'all have heard my testimony, so yeah... I think my instincts towards this kind of things are preetty accurate. Heh.
However, there's the feeling that I'm not ready for this. That's partly one of the reasons why I told my Mum I don't want to go. (Of course, one look at her countenance told me to agree to go) Also the fact that I do feel a biiit uncomfortable with sharing the word, which I know is selfish of me. That's why I'm going to push myself to do it. Haha. Fear shall not have a foothold over me! This reminds me of the time I was afraid to be in the dark, or alone. So going to places (like the loo) was sort of scary, until I forced myself to go on my own. Now I'm pretty okay with it. Hah...
So pray for me to get well please, I'm leaving tomorrow at about 10am i think. I can't really remember, my brain's kinda fuzzy. Thanks you people, and see you when I get back!
